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Life Has Been A Little Exhausting

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My Apology To My Fans

I want to send you all the biggest apologies ever. Life has been so chaotic for the last three months, that I have left you all out of it. It being my life. I’m so sorry that it’s felt like that I’ve been ignoring you all, but in the end…I have. I can’t promise anything, but I do know that I will be a little bit more active now that life has calmed down for me.

Life has been in an uproar since December. For as short as I can keep it, here’s what’s been going on in my life.

In November, I found out that my mom had cancer. I’m not going to lie. I was a little distraught. Not to the point where I couldn’t think, but enough to make my brain freeze. You know, that moment where time just sits still…and you don’t know if you’re thinking out loud or to yourself. I just happened to be doing both. During this time, things were not going well for me at my full time job. During the “day” I’m a Fine Dining Restaurant Manager. I am also a Social Media Manager for an amazing Graphic Art Design company.  I was just getting stressed out with the Restaurant Job. Between the stress of working in a small independently owned restaurant that has a small staff, it makes it harder to take time off and make life work. So, I just left work. At the time, I didn’t care that I had no money coming in. In the end, I hurt myself financially. Which was super stressful on me when I had to go and visit my mom who lived over 3 hours away from.

It has been until just recently, and I do mean very recent, that I am about to pay my rent on time…for the first in 4 months. I found myself in such an upsetting situation, so I had to work a little bit harder and try to find a way to make ends meet. With this in mind, it means that I had to highly depend on my stockpile of food and supplies that I couponed for. This is why I coupon and do my stockpiling. I gave away over 75% of my stockpile to my fellow Jerseyans when Hurricane Sandy came through, and the rest I was able to live off of…and still am. This is why I do encourage the usage of coupons and stockpiling. Not to hoard products, but to be prepared for whatever disasters in life may come.

I was living LESS than paycheck to paycheck. I was having to steal from Paul to pay Mary. Bills way behind. Rent behind. Barely able to afford gas in the truck. To add fuel to the fire, I started having troubles with the truck I was driving. Oil leak. Transmission failing. You name it, it was happening. I felt at a loss. So much was just going on, and I lost a little light. Every day was a struggle to even get up and pull myself out of bed. I wanted to do nothing more than hide and turn the world away. The only things that really kept my getting out of bed was my amazing boyfriend/fiance, my 2 puppies, and my family.

I thank God for the friends that I have in my life that remind to my faith and trust in God. Putting your trust in God is probably one of the hardest things to do. I know a lot of people don’t believe in religion or God, but I DO. I let it all go…finally. It wasn’t something theatrical to where I dropped down to my knees and cried out to him. It was a simple conversation between Him and I.

It’s March 28th, and life is finally getting to the point of leveling out. I might actually get to pay rent on time this month! Though, the better news is that (after having surgery) my mother is cancer free! I couldn’t have been any happier to have heard this news.

So, this is what my life has been up to lately. I can’t promise that I’ll be going head on full strong in trying to find the best deals all day long, but I do give you my word that I will be taking small steps to bring you better advice. I want to thank you all for staying true and reading my blog of all of the great things that I currently have on there. In the next couple of weeks, you will be seeing a few changes in trying to make it better and better. I’m striving to make it better for all of you…my dear and beloved readers. Thank you all again. I l0ve you!